Sunday, April 01, 2012
A Change Would Do You Good
So. I was looking around a couple weeks ago and realized that my "online presence" is pretty scattered. I regularly use about four different handles, which is kind of ridiculous. So now I'm consolidating. Everything else has been shifted to "fibrobabe", but I've been dragging my feet about the blog. I was able to get http://fibrobabe.blogspot.com/, and now I'm going to attempt to move all the old bektold stuff to the new blog. This may or may not be successful. My tech skills aren't exactly top notch. If something weird happens, nobody panic! I'll figure it out eventually. But in the meantime, feel free to send a few extra FGBVs my way!
Grrr again
It's been less than a week since I finished my second round of antibiotics, and my boob is all red and swollen again. I had a massage yesterday, and after a while lying on my stomach was agony. I'm going to have to go back to the doctor this week. In amongst all the chores and errands I need to complete next week so I can go to RT the week after.
Damn it, boob. Not cool.
Damn it, boob. Not cool.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
experiment
I'm just playing around, trying to see if I can blog from my little device thingie. If you're seeing this,it worked! Good news for any attempted blogging at RT in a few weeks.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Sock Problems
Nothing much to see here. I just need to post a couple of pictures so I can in turn post them on my knitting forum. Unless of course someone knows how to repair this. It's my mom's first pair of handknit socks, and she's very sad. :(
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
Update- Sorry Everybody!
Sorry, everyone! Didn't mean to leave you hanging. The mammogram went very well. It didn't hurt at all. So no excuses-- get the girls checked!
The report came back clear, with nothing to report. I'm almost finished with my course of antibiotics, and I've got a call in to my doctor to get a refill. I'm still a little pink, a little swollen, a little tender, but nothing like I was. Hopefully, a few more days on the antibiotic and I'll be back to normal.
And on the positive side, I now have a baseline mammogram. That could be helpful in the future, considering I have a family history of breast cancer.
The report came back clear, with nothing to report. I'm almost finished with my course of antibiotics, and I've got a call in to my doctor to get a refill. I'm still a little pink, a little swollen, a little tender, but nothing like I was. Hopefully, a few more days on the antibiotic and I'll be back to normal.
And on the positive side, I now have a baseline mammogram. That could be helpful in the future, considering I have a family history of breast cancer.
Friday, March 02, 2012
Nervous Update
I had my appointment today with my doctor. There's definitely something going on in there. She thinks it might be a cyst or mastitis. She sent me home with a prescription for antibiotics, and I have an appointment for Tuesday afternoon for a mammogram and an ultrasound if necessary. Her office should get the results within 24 hours, so hopefully I'll have some answers Wednesday afternoon. In the meantime, if it's an infection the antibiotic should have it on the mend.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Nervous
Just a heads up-- this is going to be weird and filled with Too Much Information. Continue at your own risk.
I need to call the doctor tomorrow. There is something strange going on with my left breast. The nipple and areola are swollen and sore. Every once in a while I'll move and feel a sharp, tearing pain. Any pressure against the breast causes a slightly duller, aching pain. There's no discoloration or discharge. It's not warm to the touch the way you might expect from infection or inflammation.
So I did the dumbest thing a person can do-- I googled. My first thought, a yeast infection, sounds unlikely. If it were bacterial it sounds like I'd probably be having a systemic reaction, which I'm not. The thing that's left is inflammatory breast cancer, one of the most sudden and aggressive forms of breast cancer.
That's right, folks. I've diagnosed myself with breast cancer off the internet. To be fair, I have a family history of breast cancer, and the medications I've been on for Crohn's give me an increased risk of all kinds of cancer. And no, I don't really think I have breast cancer based on a few web pages. But it is concerning. Also, it really fucking hurts. So I'm calling my doctor tomorrow and getting it checked out.
FGBVs, please.
Update: I have an appointment to see my doctor on Friday at 12:30.
I need to call the doctor tomorrow. There is something strange going on with my left breast. The nipple and areola are swollen and sore. Every once in a while I'll move and feel a sharp, tearing pain. Any pressure against the breast causes a slightly duller, aching pain. There's no discoloration or discharge. It's not warm to the touch the way you might expect from infection or inflammation.
So I did the dumbest thing a person can do-- I googled. My first thought, a yeast infection, sounds unlikely. If it were bacterial it sounds like I'd probably be having a systemic reaction, which I'm not. The thing that's left is inflammatory breast cancer, one of the most sudden and aggressive forms of breast cancer.
That's right, folks. I've diagnosed myself with breast cancer off the internet. To be fair, I have a family history of breast cancer, and the medications I've been on for Crohn's give me an increased risk of all kinds of cancer. And no, I don't really think I have breast cancer based on a few web pages. But it is concerning. Also, it really fucking hurts. So I'm calling my doctor tomorrow and getting it checked out.
FGBVs, please.
Update: I have an appointment to see my doctor on Friday at 12:30.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Because I Really Needed Another Project
Look what arrived on my doorstep today! Lots and lots of yarn. I've been feeling the need to knit for charity for a few months now. But not just any charity. I've been wanting to knit for homeless LGBT youth.
Did you know that somewhere between 5 and 10% of youth in the US identify as LGBT, but 20-40% of homeless youth are LGBT? Approximately 26% of LGBT kids are kicked out of their homes when they come out. They are also significantly more likely to be sexually assaulted, become addicted to drugs, to be forced to turn to sex work for survival, or to attempt suicide. They're even more at risk for abuse from shelter staff than their heterosexual counterparts. (That there is any abuse of anyone by shelter staff makes me sick to my stomach.)
These are kids who need help. They need to know that there are people out there who care about them. And they need to be warm. So I'm knitting for them. Right now I'm positively obsessed with hats. I've knit two in the last two days, and I have two more that I knit in January with the intention to donate. All that yarn in the picture above will be hats soon. After that there will be scarves and cowls and fingerless mitts.
So far I have one place identified to send these items-- Larkin Street Youth Services in San Francisco. There's a woman who collects knit and crochet donations all year long to go into holiday gift packages for the kids. I've also contacted an LGBT youth center here in Indianapolis to see if they have a need for hats and scarves for their clients, or know of a program in the area that does. (I'd really like to keep at least some of this local.) And I've found programs in Iowa, Michigan, New York, and Nevada that look like they could use handknits. I'll have to contact them and see if they have any specific needs or guidelines for donations.
If you know of any LGBT programs in your area that could use handknits, please let me know and I'll add them to my list to contact. And please, consider making a few yourself if you're crafty, or finding other ways to support this population. They sure as hell need all the kindness and support they can get.
And now, I'm going to cast on for another hat.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Frog in a Party Hat
I finished a new knitting project tonight. Don't adjust your screens, it really is this bright.
OK, maybe the color doesn't come through really well in this picture, but trust me, it's BRIGHT.
The pattern is Sockhead, and the name of the colorway is Frog in a Party Dress, so I've named this Frog in a Party Hat. It's nice and cozy, but not so heavy that I couldn't wear it in spring or fall as a fashion statement. (You know me, I'm all about the fashion statement.) I'm quite satisfied with this hat, and I expect that there will be more Sockheads to come. And I already have plans for the leftover yarn, of which there is a fair bit. A book of sock patterns came in the mail today, and there's a really cute one that calls for just a little bit of a contrasting color. This pink and green yarn should be almost a shock of color against a black yarn. Or maybe it will work against some deep purple I have in my stash. We'll see.
My brother and sister-in-law came for dinner tonight. Jer's birthday is in mid-February, and he very humbly requested another pair of heavy house socks. He asked for a pair for Christmas, and he loves them so much that he hasn't been willing to skip wearing them around the house long enough to get them washed! Clearly, this is a guy who needs at least one more warm pair of handknit socks.
Lip Balm of the Day: Pink Cake
OK, maybe the color doesn't come through really well in this picture, but trust me, it's BRIGHT.
The pattern is Sockhead, and the name of the colorway is Frog in a Party Dress, so I've named this Frog in a Party Hat. It's nice and cozy, but not so heavy that I couldn't wear it in spring or fall as a fashion statement. (You know me, I'm all about the fashion statement.) I'm quite satisfied with this hat, and I expect that there will be more Sockheads to come. And I already have plans for the leftover yarn, of which there is a fair bit. A book of sock patterns came in the mail today, and there's a really cute one that calls for just a little bit of a contrasting color. This pink and green yarn should be almost a shock of color against a black yarn. Or maybe it will work against some deep purple I have in my stash. We'll see.
My brother and sister-in-law came for dinner tonight. Jer's birthday is in mid-February, and he very humbly requested another pair of heavy house socks. He asked for a pair for Christmas, and he loves them so much that he hasn't been willing to skip wearing them around the house long enough to get them washed! Clearly, this is a guy who needs at least one more warm pair of handknit socks.
Lip Balm of the Day: Pink Cake
Monday, January 23, 2012
The Collage
I finally got my act together and assembled the collage for the story I'm doing for Fast Draft! Here's the picture:
The other one says:
It's on a magnetic board, and the round things are all magnets I made for the collage. Some are just pictures, but most of them say something, like "Keep Calm and Rock On" or "Keep Calm and Do It Anyway". A couple are Big Bag quotes, including "I'm clearly too evolved for driving" and "I am not crazy, my mother had me tested".
The pictures all represent a character or group of characters or some aspect of the story. The big 3 is to remind me that in stories, things often happen in threes. So if I'm stuck, look for something that needs to repeat.
I guess that's it. If you have any questions about any of the images, or can't tell what they are (the overall picture may be a little small if you don't already know what you're looking at), just ask.
I've already procrastinated the day away, so I'm going to go poke at a blank page and see if I can't at least rack up a few words before bed.
Lip Balm of the Day: White Cranberry
I'm sure the text is too small to read, so the top one is a quote from the beginning of The Hobbit. It says:
This is a story of how a Baggins had an adventure, and found himself doing and saying things altogether unexpected. He may have lost the neighbors' respect, but he gained-- well, you will see whether he gained anything in the end.
The other one says:
"Nothing Happens without risk." Anne Packard
It's on a magnetic board, and the round things are all magnets I made for the collage. Some are just pictures, but most of them say something, like "Keep Calm and Rock On" or "Keep Calm and Do It Anyway". A couple are Big Bag quotes, including "I'm clearly too evolved for driving" and "I am not crazy, my mother had me tested".
The pictures all represent a character or group of characters or some aspect of the story. The big 3 is to remind me that in stories, things often happen in threes. So if I'm stuck, look for something that needs to repeat.
I guess that's it. If you have any questions about any of the images, or can't tell what they are (the overall picture may be a little small if you don't already know what you're looking at), just ask.
I've already procrastinated the day away, so I'm going to go poke at a blank page and see if I can't at least rack up a few words before bed.
Lip Balm of the Day: White Cranberry
Monday, January 16, 2012
Jumping In, Head First
I've been amping myself up, in secret, for doing Fast Draft.
In secret because I can't stand the idea of my parents knowing about my writing. 1. Because it immediately comes with the high pressure nagging to start submitting stories to publishers. (Bugging someone to submit before they're ready is not helpful.) And 2. Because I know that they would thoroughly disapprove of what I plan to write. It would be a hard enough secret to keep if I wasn't living with them and I got a story published. But, emotionally, living with my parents is like living as an exhibit at the zoo. Everything is know and noticed. There's no mental privacy. If they knew I was writing, they'd want to read it. If they knew it was published they'd want to buy it and read it and tell their friends. And while I feel no shame at all in what I read and intend to write, they'd be deeply ashamed of it, which gets in my head and scrambles it.
So, anyway, I was telling you how I was getting myself mentally prepared for Fast Draft. That's two weeks of pedal-to-the-metal writing. 5,000 words a day is the goal. (Although I give myself full permission to do less if that's beyond my limits. But I want to stretch myself and see if that's possible. If not, less is more than none.) I've been mostly just *thinking* about writing. Thinking about what music is inspiring me right now, looking at images that I might want to add to a collage. Stuff like that.
And then last week, out of the blue, my parents start hassling me at dinner about my writing. Now I admit, I have a pretty thin skin when it comes to anything that I'm trying to do and keep to myself. If I hadn't been thinking about trying to write again it probably would have rolled right off my back. But with that writing desire so close to the surface it upset me a lot. My immediate response (which I did not voice, because even if they'd just "ruined it" for me, I still didn't want them to know what I was thinking about doing) was to not do it. To give up. I was pretty pissed for a while.
Today I said, "screw it," and I signed up for Fast Draft anyway. I'm just going to have to find a way to put up steel bars, castle walls, and a moat all around me, to protect what I need to be intensely private from the intrusion of the unwelcome. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to manage that without creating A Thing in the house. Like the Mom in Everybody Loves Raymond, my mother has a very limited sense of boundaries, and feels that everything is her business. I don't particularly want to deal with butt hurt while simultaneously attempting to write a novel.
So that's my frustration at the moment. In lighter news, I did a bit of pre-work today by poking around looking for songs for the soundtrack and images for the collage. I'm loving it all, although the whole thing is a bit schizophrenic. Tone and imagery are all over the place. I'm hoping that some of this settles into a semi-coherent something between now and next Sunday, when the class starts.
Like I said before, the goal is 5,000 words a day. That's 70,000 words over the course of two weeks. Not unheard of, but quite a bit longer than the average m/m story. So I'm thinking, if the 5,000 words per day turns out to be doable, I'll end up writing two stories. The first one I'm thinking of is the riff on The Hobbit that I toyed around with and wrote a few lines for last November during NaNo. I plan to read The Hobbit this week, as soon as I find my old copy, make it to the used bookstore to get another copy, or break down and pay the outrageous $10.99 that Penguin is asking for a Kindle copy. I really want a digital copy, but not at that price.
The idea for the second story came directly out of all the image searching I did today. I'm thinking either A Rare Duck or An Odd Duck for the title. A guy who collects rubber ducks is searching for one particular, rare duckie, and another guy is trying to block him from having it. First thought was that something was smuggled into the country inside the duck. Second thought is that maybe he's on some weird, Amazing Race type hunt, and he's looking for a clue hidden in the duckie. I'm not sure, but I've got a week to figure this stuff out.
As a thank you for making your way through all this rambling mess, here is a video with one of the songs I've picked for the soundtrack and a few of the images I have so far. You'll see what I mean about them not fitting together in tone AT ALL. But this is what it is, so I've got to work with it.
Sarah Jarosz is a relatively new discovery of mine, and I completely adore her. So talented.
And now, some more pretty boys.
In secret because I can't stand the idea of my parents knowing about my writing. 1. Because it immediately comes with the high pressure nagging to start submitting stories to publishers. (Bugging someone to submit before they're ready is not helpful.) And 2. Because I know that they would thoroughly disapprove of what I plan to write. It would be a hard enough secret to keep if I wasn't living with them and I got a story published. But, emotionally, living with my parents is like living as an exhibit at the zoo. Everything is know and noticed. There's no mental privacy. If they knew I was writing, they'd want to read it. If they knew it was published they'd want to buy it and read it and tell their friends. And while I feel no shame at all in what I read and intend to write, they'd be deeply ashamed of it, which gets in my head and scrambles it.
So, anyway, I was telling you how I was getting myself mentally prepared for Fast Draft. That's two weeks of pedal-to-the-metal writing. 5,000 words a day is the goal. (Although I give myself full permission to do less if that's beyond my limits. But I want to stretch myself and see if that's possible. If not, less is more than none.) I've been mostly just *thinking* about writing. Thinking about what music is inspiring me right now, looking at images that I might want to add to a collage. Stuff like that.
And then last week, out of the blue, my parents start hassling me at dinner about my writing. Now I admit, I have a pretty thin skin when it comes to anything that I'm trying to do and keep to myself. If I hadn't been thinking about trying to write again it probably would have rolled right off my back. But with that writing desire so close to the surface it upset me a lot. My immediate response (which I did not voice, because even if they'd just "ruined it" for me, I still didn't want them to know what I was thinking about doing) was to not do it. To give up. I was pretty pissed for a while.
Today I said, "screw it," and I signed up for Fast Draft anyway. I'm just going to have to find a way to put up steel bars, castle walls, and a moat all around me, to protect what I need to be intensely private from the intrusion of the unwelcome. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to manage that without creating A Thing in the house. Like the Mom in Everybody Loves Raymond, my mother has a very limited sense of boundaries, and feels that everything is her business. I don't particularly want to deal with butt hurt while simultaneously attempting to write a novel.
So that's my frustration at the moment. In lighter news, I did a bit of pre-work today by poking around looking for songs for the soundtrack and images for the collage. I'm loving it all, although the whole thing is a bit schizophrenic. Tone and imagery are all over the place. I'm hoping that some of this settles into a semi-coherent something between now and next Sunday, when the class starts.
Like I said before, the goal is 5,000 words a day. That's 70,000 words over the course of two weeks. Not unheard of, but quite a bit longer than the average m/m story. So I'm thinking, if the 5,000 words per day turns out to be doable, I'll end up writing two stories. The first one I'm thinking of is the riff on The Hobbit that I toyed around with and wrote a few lines for last November during NaNo. I plan to read The Hobbit this week, as soon as I find my old copy, make it to the used bookstore to get another copy, or break down and pay the outrageous $10.99 that Penguin is asking for a Kindle copy. I really want a digital copy, but not at that price.
The idea for the second story came directly out of all the image searching I did today. I'm thinking either A Rare Duck or An Odd Duck for the title. A guy who collects rubber ducks is searching for one particular, rare duckie, and another guy is trying to block him from having it. First thought was that something was smuggled into the country inside the duck. Second thought is that maybe he's on some weird, Amazing Race type hunt, and he's looking for a clue hidden in the duckie. I'm not sure, but I've got a week to figure this stuff out.
As a thank you for making your way through all this rambling mess, here is a video with one of the songs I've picked for the soundtrack and a few of the images I have so far. You'll see what I mean about them not fitting together in tone AT ALL. But this is what it is, so I've got to work with it.
Sarah Jarosz is a relatively new discovery of mine, and I completely adore her. So talented.
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| Eyeliner Dude |
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| I was going to put the crazy guys in the Hobbit story in a van with a wizard painted on the side, but I thought that was a little on the nose. So maybe they'll drive one painted like the A Team van. Or maybe the Mystery Machine, who knows. |
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| Cool Joe Duck |
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| Love Duck |
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| Vintage airplanes. Not sure where I'm going with this one *at all*. |
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| Disco Ducks! |
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| Someone in this story has a dog? Who knew? |
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| Rockin' duck toilet seat |
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| Christmas cookies, because who ever heard of too many Christmas cookies? |
And now, some more pretty boys.
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| I have him labeled as "Brad". Not sure who Brad is, but I'll figure it out eventually. |
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| This lovely specimen is apparently "Ethan". |
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| Not sure who this is yet, but he's got attitude to spare. |
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| Gotta love a kiss. |
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| And this guy is just hot and wearing a scarf. |
Friday, January 13, 2012
Pick a Color, Any Color
I've bleached a stripe in my hair for maximum color impact. Now I just need to settle on which color I want to use! (Bear in mind that the rest of my hair is now a deep auburn. She went more chocolate brown and less red this time. Next time I think I'll have her scale back on the brown and add a bit more red.)
So, here are the choices I'm looking at.
So, here are the choices I'm looking at.
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| After Midnight Blue |
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| Purple Haze |
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| Ultra Violet |
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| Electric Lizard |
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| Shocking Blue |
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| New Rose |
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| Pretty Flamingo |
I know I want the green, but I'm torn on the others. I like them ALL, but several of them are pretty close, and it wouldn't necessarily make sense to buy them all at once. What do you think? Which ones should I go for?
Update: Just for Julie (and her sister), I've edited so that we're talking about hair color, not dye. The weather has been yuck, so I haven't had a chance to go out and get anything yet. I know I definitely want Electric Lizard and Shocking Blue, but I'm thinking I might go for some Purple Haze or Pretty Flamingo, too. Kind of depends on what I can find and how expensive it all is.
Update: Just for Julie (and her sister), I've edited so that we're talking about hair color, not dye. The weather has been yuck, so I haven't had a chance to go out and get anything yet. I know I definitely want Electric Lizard and Shocking Blue, but I'm thinking I might go for some Purple Haze or Pretty Flamingo, too. Kind of depends on what I can find and how expensive it all is.
Monday, January 09, 2012
2011 Wordle
I meant to post this last week sometime, but you know how stuff gets away from me. It's a Wordle of the titles and authors of all the books I read in 2011. Pretty clear who made my "most read" list, huh?
Sorry it's so small. If you click on it, you'll go to the Wordle page with a larger image.
Sorry it's so small. If you click on it, you'll go to the Wordle page with a larger image.
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Coolest Card EVAR!
Check this out! I got the coolest card in the mail today.
Does that not just rock? I think this one is going to have to go on my permanent magnet board, once I get the damn thing hung again.
In other news, I don't have much news. I'm reading A Lady Awakened by Cecilia Grant, which is pretty amazing so far. There's been a lot of buzz about this one, and if the rest stays as good as what I've read so far, it will be totally deserving. I'll let you know how it goes.
I saw on twitter that Candace Havens is getting ready to run another Fast Draft class, and I'm seriously considering signing up. Has anyone taken it? Any advice? Apparently the idea of the class is that you're supposed to write 5,000 words a day, so at the end of the two weeks, you should have a 70,000 word first draft. That's one unusually long m/m romance, or quite possibly two average-ish length ones. I'm not sure if I'm up for that kind of pressure, but it sure would be a kick in the ass to get writing. And the class is only $20, so it's not like it's a huge financial investment. (Although a significant time investment if I'm really going to do it.)
As far as the rest of my resolutions go, the cleaning one isn't going exactly as I planned, but I am making progress. Today was trash day, and I managed to ditch a whole trash bag full of crap.
I have the next knitting project for myself planned out, but I'm trying to wrap up a few ongoing projects before I start it.
The "read less" resolution is in the toilet. I looked at my little red book, and as of the first of the year I only had 295 books to read to reach 1,000 since I started logging them. I think I'd rather hit 1,000 this year, so 295 is my new goal. I have, however, managed to not buy a book for 5 whole days. That's pretty good for me lately.
Let's see. What else? I haven't done any exercise since that little bout on the Wii last week. I haven't bothered with the picture a day thing, either, although I'm still enjoying taking pictures with my Samsung thingie. Mostly of the cat.
I think that's everything new and interesting. Or even not so interesting. I'm not even wearing any lip balm today!
Does that not just rock? I think this one is going to have to go on my permanent magnet board, once I get the damn thing hung again.
In other news, I don't have much news. I'm reading A Lady Awakened by Cecilia Grant, which is pretty amazing so far. There's been a lot of buzz about this one, and if the rest stays as good as what I've read so far, it will be totally deserving. I'll let you know how it goes.
I saw on twitter that Candace Havens is getting ready to run another Fast Draft class, and I'm seriously considering signing up. Has anyone taken it? Any advice? Apparently the idea of the class is that you're supposed to write 5,000 words a day, so at the end of the two weeks, you should have a 70,000 word first draft. That's one unusually long m/m romance, or quite possibly two average-ish length ones. I'm not sure if I'm up for that kind of pressure, but it sure would be a kick in the ass to get writing. And the class is only $20, so it's not like it's a huge financial investment. (Although a significant time investment if I'm really going to do it.)
As far as the rest of my resolutions go, the cleaning one isn't going exactly as I planned, but I am making progress. Today was trash day, and I managed to ditch a whole trash bag full of crap.
I have the next knitting project for myself planned out, but I'm trying to wrap up a few ongoing projects before I start it.
The "read less" resolution is in the toilet. I looked at my little red book, and as of the first of the year I only had 295 books to read to reach 1,000 since I started logging them. I think I'd rather hit 1,000 this year, so 295 is my new goal. I have, however, managed to not buy a book for 5 whole days. That's pretty good for me lately.
Let's see. What else? I haven't done any exercise since that little bout on the Wii last week. I haven't bothered with the picture a day thing, either, although I'm still enjoying taking pictures with my Samsung thingie. Mostly of the cat.
I think that's everything new and interesting. Or even not so interesting. I'm not even wearing any lip balm today!
Monday, January 02, 2012
What I Want
I think this picture expresses pretty perfectly what I want for myself in 2012.
I used to dream. I dreamed that I'd at least walk, if not run, the Disney marathon. I dreamed of settling down and raising a family. I dreamed of being a published author someday. And I worked toward those dreams. I trained for that marathon, and I did a lot of 5k's and even one 10k, although the marathon never happened for me. I kept my eyes open for the right guy, the one I'd want to raise a family with, and I never found him. Or, I should say. I haven't found him yet, although the hard realities of my life make never having had those kids more of a blessing than a regret. And until I got sick and discouraged and, let's face it, depressed, I worked on my writing, too.
It's time for me to discover what my dreams are again, to believe in them, and to start working toward making them a reality. I know I still want to be a published author, maybe more now than before, with some of those other dreams gone. So that's the one I'm going to work on right now. I'm not entirely sure *how* I'm going to work on it. I feel like I've got a whole set of muscles that have forgotten how to move. Is there such a thing as author's therapy? Writer's rehab? If so, I need to check myself in for an inpatient program! Short of that, I need to start flexing those creative muscles again, playing with ideas and possibilities, laying the groundwork in my head for putting words on paper.
I'm going to wear those pendants as much as possible this year, to remind myself to Dream and Believe. Dream and Believe and then Act. It doesn't get you where you want to be if you don't have all three.
I used to dream. I dreamed that I'd at least walk, if not run, the Disney marathon. I dreamed of settling down and raising a family. I dreamed of being a published author someday. And I worked toward those dreams. I trained for that marathon, and I did a lot of 5k's and even one 10k, although the marathon never happened for me. I kept my eyes open for the right guy, the one I'd want to raise a family with, and I never found him. Or, I should say. I haven't found him yet, although the hard realities of my life make never having had those kids more of a blessing than a regret. And until I got sick and discouraged and, let's face it, depressed, I worked on my writing, too.
It's time for me to discover what my dreams are again, to believe in them, and to start working toward making them a reality. I know I still want to be a published author, maybe more now than before, with some of those other dreams gone. So that's the one I'm going to work on right now. I'm not entirely sure *how* I'm going to work on it. I feel like I've got a whole set of muscles that have forgotten how to move. Is there such a thing as author's therapy? Writer's rehab? If so, I need to check myself in for an inpatient program! Short of that, I need to start flexing those creative muscles again, playing with ideas and possibilities, laying the groundwork in my head for putting words on paper.
I'm going to wear those pendants as much as possible this year, to remind myself to Dream and Believe. Dream and Believe and then Act. It doesn't get you where you want to be if you don't have all three.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
The Book List- 2011
Here it comes. The hairy, scary list of over 300 books that I read this year. (There are a fair number of category and novella length stories in here, so it's not quite as impressive as it sounds at first.) I've bolded my favorites. The ones that are both bolded and starred *** were my very most favorite. I've reread many of the starred ones a time or two already.
1. How to Marry a Duke- Vicky Dreiling
2. Desperate Choices- Kathy Ivan
3. Doctor Who: Snowfall- Gavin Collinson and Mark B. Oliver
4. Midnight Crystal- Jayne Castle
5. The Sevenfold Spell- Tia Nevitt
6. The Awakening- L.J. Smith
7. Waking the Witch- Kelley Armstrong
8. Not Just the Nanny- Christine Ridgway
9. Like Clockwork- Bonnie Dee
10. Warrior- Zoe Archer
11. Treasured- Crystal Jordan
12. Physical Therapy- Z.A. Maxfield
13. Coin Operated- Ginny Glass
14. In Too Deep- Jayne Ann Krentz
15. Ladies Man- Suzanne Brockmann
16. A Discovery of Witches- Deborah Harkness
17. Somebody Killed His Editor- Josh Lanyon
18. Fatal Shadows- Josh Lanyon***
19. A Dangerous Thing- Josh Lanyon***
20. The Hell You Say- Josh Lanyon***
21. Death of a Pirate King- Josh Lanyon***
22. The Dark Tide- Josh Lanyon***
23. Among the Living- Jordan Castillo Price
24. Criss Cross- Jordan Castillo Price
25. The Dickens With Love- Josh Lanyon
26. His Convenient Husband- J.L. Langley
27. Hemovore- Jordan Castillo Price
28. Erias Menage- Alice Gaines
29. All She Wrote- Josh Lanyon
30. Crux: Southern Arcana, Book 1- Moira Rogers
31. Lessons in Love: A Cambridge Fellows Mystery- Charlie Cochrane
32. Mercy Blade- Faith Hunter
33. Duck!- Kim Dare
34. The One That Got Away- Rhianne Aile and Madeleine Urban
35. Whisper Falls- Toni Blake
36. Body & Soul- Jordan Castillo Price
37. The Spurned Viscountess- Shelley Munro
38. Blinded By Our Eyes- Clare London
39. Undeniably Yours- Shanon Stacey
40. Fair Game- Josh Lanyon
41. The Happy Onion- Ally Blue
42. Blameless- Gail Carriger
43. Burning Up- Angela Knight, Nalini Singh, Virginia Kantra, Meljean Brook
44. His at Night- Sherry Thomas
45. Lead Me On- Victoria Dahl
46. Heaven- Jet Mykles
47. Court Appointed- Annmarie McKenna
48. Strawberries For Dessert- Marie Sexton***
49. Purgatory- Jet Mykles
50. Hell- Jet Mykles***
51. The Iron Duke- Meljean Brook
52. Holiday Sparks- Shannon Stacey
53. Catch Me If You Can- L.B. Gregg
54. Black Gold- Clancy Nacht, Thursday Euclid
55. Bareback- Chris Owen
56. Here Comes the Groom- Karina Bliss
57. Motor City Witch- Cindy Spencer Pape
58. Amethyst Bound- L. Shannon
59. Talk Dirty to Me- Ginny Glass, Inez Kelley
60. Call Me Irresistible- Susan Elizabeth Phillips
61. Bring the Heat- M.L. Rhodes
62. Shadowfever- Karen Marie Moning
63. Touch Me Gently- J.R. Loveless
64. Blue Ruin 1: Some Kind of Stranger- Katrina Strauss
65. Coming Undone- Susan Andersen
66. Tech Support- Jet Mykles
67. Yours, Mine, and Howls- Kinsey W. Holley
68. Handcuffs and Spreader Bars- Kim Dare
69. Mind F*cked- Mia Watts
70. Pretty Man- Ryan Field
71. Sex and the Single Earl- Vanessa Kelly
72. Coming Clean- Inez Kelley
73. Blood, Smoke, and Mirrors- Robyn Bachar
74. Texas Tangle- Leah Braemel
75. Strange Fortune- Josh Lanyon
76. Promises- Marie Sexton
77. Faith & Fidelity- Tere Michaels
78. Overnight- E.C. Sheedy
79. One Con Glory- Sarah Kuhn
80. Drawn Together- Z.A. Maxfield
81. The Charlie Factor- Diana DeRicci
82. Slave Boy- Evangeline Anderson
83. Slave to Sensation- Nalini Singh
84. Snowed In- Rhianne Aile and Madeleine Urban
85. Brier's Bargain- Carol Lynne
86. Seb's Surrender- Carol Lynne
87. I Love Rock N Roll- Carol Lynne
88. Cryoburn- Lois McMaster Bujold
89. No One Lives Twice- Julie Moffett
90. Whistling in the Dark- Tamara Allen
91. Anna and the French Kiss- Stephanie Perkins
92. The Ghost Wore Yellow Socks- Josh Lanyon***
93. Sno Ho- Ethan Day
94. Truly, Madly- Heather Webber
95. Just For You- Jet Mykles
96. Faith- Jet Mykles
97. Genesis- Jet Mykles
98. Revelations- Jet Mykles
99. The Peach Keeper- Sarah Addison Allen
100. William's House- Amber Kell
101. Talker- Amy Lane
102. Talker's Redemption- Amy Lane
103. The Girl For Me- Failte***
104. Quicksilver- Amanda Quick
105. Striking Sparks- Jordan Castillo Price
106. Handcuffs and Leather- Kim Dare
107. Truth in the Dark- Amy Lane
108. Badlands- Seleste deLaney
109. Gambling On Maybe- Fae Sutherland
110. If I Must- Amy Lane***
111. Making His List- Devon Rhodes
112. Scoundrel- Zoe Archer
113. Wrong Number, Right Guy- Mia Watts
114. Hunters- Michelle Marquis
115. Three Wrong Turns in the Desert- Neil Plakcy
116. Shadow Touch- Marjorie M. Liu
117. Love & Scandal- Donna Lea Simpson
118. Rosemary and Rue- Seanan McGuire
119. Lord Scandal- Kalen Hughes
120. The Panther's Lair- Esmerelda Bishop
121. Infernal Devices- Abigail Barnette
122. Trash Course- Penny Drake
123. The Ghost on My Couch- L.A. Gilbert
124. Real Mermaids Don't Wear Toe Rings- Helene Boudreau
125. Hot Pursuit- Suzanne Brockmann
126. Magic Slays- Ilona Andrews
127. The Debutante's Dilemma- Elyse Mady
128. All Play & No Work- Carol Lynne
129. Breaking the Rules- Suzanne Brockmann
130. Edward Unconditionally- Lynn Lorenz
131. Always the Baker Never the Bride- Sandra D. Bricker
132. Fireflies- Ally Blue
133. With the Band- L.A. Witt
134. Everything and the Moon- Julia Quinn
135. Come Unto These Yellow Sands- Josh Lanyon***
136. The Hood of Justice- Mark Alders
137. Tabloid Star- T.A. Chase
138. The Red Pyramid- Rick Riordan
139. Yours to Keep- Shannon Stacey
140. Conquest- S.J. Frost
141. Do Over- Mari Carr
142. What I Did For a Duke- Julie Anne Long
143. Details of the Hunt- Laura Baumbach
144. Cry Sanctuary- Moira Rogers
145. A to Z- Marie Sexton
146. Silver Bound- Ella Drake
147. Should We Drown in Feathered Sleep- Michael Merriam
148. Camwolf- J.L. Merrow
149. The Dark Enquiry- Deanna Raybourn
150. Threadbare- Clare London
151. Pricks and Pragmatism- J.L. Merrow
152. When Tony Met Adam- Suzanne Brockmann
153. River Marked- Patricia Briggs
154. Hot Head- Damon Suede
155. Chasing AllieCat- Rebecca Fjelland Davis
156. My So-Called Love Life- Allie Pleiter
157. Steam & Sorcery- Cindy Spencer Pape
158. The Missing Butterfly- Megan Derr
159. Love Ahead: Expect Delays- Astrid Amara
160. With This Ring- T.A. Chase
161. How to Keep the Love of Your Life- Maureen Willmann
162. Hex Hall- Rachel Hawkins
163. Tin Star- J.L. Langley
164. Heartless- Gail Carriger
165. Call Me Sir, Boy- Kim Dare
166. Tempest Rising- Nicole Peeler
167. Side Jobs- Jim Butcher
168. Off the Beaten Path- Katrina Strauss
169. Ghost Story- Jim Butcher
170. Diving in Deep- K.A. Mitchell
171. Just-You Eyes- Clare London
172. We're Both Straight, Right?- Jamie Fessenden
173. Hard Fall- James Buchanan
174. Making Waves- Tawna Fenske
175. Dead Reckoning- Charlaine Harris
176. The Thief- Megan Whalen Turner
177. Man, oh Man!- Josh Lanyon
178. Muscling Through- J.L. Merrow
179. Lover Avenged- J.R. Ward
180. Collision Course- K.A. Mitchell
181. Buried Sins- Marta Perry
182. Spice n Solace- K.C. Burn
183. Stone Kissed- Keri Stevens
184. Jump First- Charles Edwards
185. A Dog Named Slugger- Leigh Brill
186. Under Fire- Jo Davis
187. Mistletoe at Midnight- L.B. Gregg
188. The Fortune Quilt- Lani Diane Rich
189. Life, Over Easy- K.A. Mitchell
190. Secrets- Jordan Castillo Price
191. Accidentally His- Shawn Lane
192. Sex, Lies, and Online Dating-Rachel Gibson
193. The Last Pure Human- Twisted Hilarity
194. Camp Hell- Jordan Castillo Price
195. In a Dark Wood- Josh Lanyon
196. Yakuza Pride- H.J. Brues
197. Artie the Good Witch- Scarlet Hyacinth
198. Devon Cream- Jet Mykles
199. Half Pass- Astrid Amara
200. Marry Me- Jo Goodman
201. A Nanny For Nate- Lisa Worrall
202. Canyons of Night- Jayne Castle
203. Keeping House- Lee Brazil
204. Devlin and Garrick- Cameron Dane
205. The Book of Bright Ideas- Sandra Kring
206. The Gentleman and the Rogue- Bonnie Dee
207. Maritime Men- Janey Chapel
208. The Shattered Gates- Ginn Hale
209. Ticket to Ride- Shawn Lane
210. Crazy Wind- Xara X. Xanakas
211. When Irish Eyes Are Smiling- Tom Collins
212. Mind Fuck- Manna Francis
213. Wooing Master Jones- Amber Kell
214. Snagged- Jet Mykles
215. Servant of the Crossed Arrows- Ginn Hale
216. Horizons- Mickie B. Ashling
217. Taste- Mickie B. Ashling
218. India Black- Carol K. Carr
219. Finding Forgiveness- Dana Marie Bell
220. The Broken H- J.L. Langley
221. Mummy Dearest- Josh Lanyon***
222. Wolfsbane (MIA Case Files, #1)- K.C. Burn
223. ePistols at Dawn- Z.A. Maxfield
224. Dressed to Thrill- Kimberly Gardner
225. Spin Out- James Buchanan
226. GhosTV- Jordan Castillo Price***
227. He Completes Me- Cardeno C.
228. precious_boy- K.Z. Snow
229. Catching a Buzz- Ally Blue
230. And Call Me in the Morning- Willa Okati
231. Foxe Tail- Haley Walsh
232. Cut & Run- Madeleine Urban and Abigail Roux
233. Spell Bound- Kelley Armstrong
234. Squire- Jet Mykles
235. Like a Sparrow Through the Heart- Aggy Bird
236. A Change of Tune- J.M. Cartwright
237. Wicked Gentlemen- Ginn Hale
238. Barging In- Josephine Myles
239. Bent- Sean Michael
240. Cherry Pie- Samantha Kane
241. Cooking With Ergo- Luisa Prieto
242. Love & Loyalty- Tere Michaels
243. Anything For You- Ethan Day
244. When Irish Eyes Are Sparkling- Tom Collins
245. Some Kind of Magic- R. Cooper
246. Oleander House- Ally Blue
247. Libra: Outlined in Ink- Vivien Dean
248. Brindisi Bedfellows- Jamie Craig
249. Shades of Gray- Brooke McKinley
250. An Uncommon Whore- Belinda McBride
251. Like Coffee and Doughnuts- Ellie Parker
252. Bad Company- K.A. Mitchell
253. The Curtis Reincarnation- Zathyn Priest
254. His Hearth- Mary Calmes
255. Sursein Judgment- Jet Mykles
256. Just Hit Send- Grasshopper
257. Rhapsody For Piano and Ghost- Z.A. Maxfield
258. The Assignment- Evangeline Anderson
259. Litha's Constant Whim- Amy Lane
260. Between Sinners and Saints- Marie Sexton***
261. The Dark Horse- Josh Lanyon
262. Scorpio: The Heart to Help- Jamie Craig
263. Quinn's Hart- Cassandra Gold
264. Long Tall Drink- L.C. Chase
265. Not Knowing Jack- K.A. Mitchell
266. Bear, Otter, and the Kid- T.J. Klune***
267. One Real Thing- Anah Crow
268. Handcuffs and Pretty Things- Kim Dare
269. Gobsmacked- L.B. Gregg
270. Stolen Hearts- Sasha L. Miller
271. Crossing Borders- Z.A. Maxfield
272. The Cards of Life and Death- Colleen Gleason
273. Aquarius: He Said, He Said- Jamie Craig
274. Sonoran Heat- Katrina Strauss
275. Men Under the Mistletoe- Josh Lanyon, Harper Fox, Ava March, K.A. Mitchell
276. Goldilocks and His Three Bears- A.M. Riley
277. Grand Jete- Diana Copland
278. Submission- Chris Owen
279. The Locker Room- Amy Lane
280. Christmas With Danny Fit- Amy Lane***
281. Holiday Outing- Astrid Amara
282. Got Mistletoe?- Andi Anderson
283. Del Fantasma: Duck Fart- Jade Buchanan
284. Counterpoint- Rachel Haimowitz
285. And Playing the Role of Herself- K.E. Lane
286. Hide Out- Katie Allen
287. Primal Red- Nicole Kimberling
288. Baby It's Cold Outside- Nicole Kimberling
289. GI Joe Holiday- Amberly Smith
290. Winter Warmers- Chrissy Munder, Clare London, JL Merrow, Josephine Myles, Lou Harper
291. Mistletoe & Margaritas- Shannon Stacey
292. The Plot Bunny- Scarlet Hyacinth
293. Icecapade- Josh Lanyon
294. Someone Special- T.C. Blue
295. Black Cat Ink- Nicole Kimberling
296. All Snug- B.G. Thomas
297. The Winter Courtship Rituals of Fur-Bearing Critters- Amy Lane
298. Batteries Not Included- J.L. Merrow
299. Hue, Tint, and Shade- Jordan Castillo Price
300. Simple Gifts- L.B. Gregg
301. Carol of the Bellskis- Astrid Amara
302. Twinkle, Twinkle- Josephine Myles
303. The Elf, the Cat, and the Human- Sasha L. Miller
304. The Larton Chronicles- James Anson
1. How to Marry a Duke- Vicky Dreiling
2. Desperate Choices- Kathy Ivan
3. Doctor Who: Snowfall- Gavin Collinson and Mark B. Oliver
4. Midnight Crystal- Jayne Castle
5. The Sevenfold Spell- Tia Nevitt
6. The Awakening- L.J. Smith
7. Waking the Witch- Kelley Armstrong
8. Not Just the Nanny- Christine Ridgway
9. Like Clockwork- Bonnie Dee
10. Warrior- Zoe Archer
11. Treasured- Crystal Jordan
12. Physical Therapy- Z.A. Maxfield
13. Coin Operated- Ginny Glass
14. In Too Deep- Jayne Ann Krentz
15. Ladies Man- Suzanne Brockmann
16. A Discovery of Witches- Deborah Harkness
17. Somebody Killed His Editor- Josh Lanyon
18. Fatal Shadows- Josh Lanyon***
19. A Dangerous Thing- Josh Lanyon***
20. The Hell You Say- Josh Lanyon***
21. Death of a Pirate King- Josh Lanyon***
22. The Dark Tide- Josh Lanyon***
23. Among the Living- Jordan Castillo Price
24. Criss Cross- Jordan Castillo Price
25. The Dickens With Love- Josh Lanyon
26. His Convenient Husband- J.L. Langley
27. Hemovore- Jordan Castillo Price
28. Erias Menage- Alice Gaines
29. All She Wrote- Josh Lanyon
30. Crux: Southern Arcana, Book 1- Moira Rogers
31. Lessons in Love: A Cambridge Fellows Mystery- Charlie Cochrane
32. Mercy Blade- Faith Hunter
33. Duck!- Kim Dare
34. The One That Got Away- Rhianne Aile and Madeleine Urban
35. Whisper Falls- Toni Blake
36. Body & Soul- Jordan Castillo Price
37. The Spurned Viscountess- Shelley Munro
38. Blinded By Our Eyes- Clare London
39. Undeniably Yours- Shanon Stacey
40. Fair Game- Josh Lanyon
41. The Happy Onion- Ally Blue
42. Blameless- Gail Carriger
43. Burning Up- Angela Knight, Nalini Singh, Virginia Kantra, Meljean Brook
44. His at Night- Sherry Thomas
45. Lead Me On- Victoria Dahl
46. Heaven- Jet Mykles
47. Court Appointed- Annmarie McKenna
48. Strawberries For Dessert- Marie Sexton***
49. Purgatory- Jet Mykles
50. Hell- Jet Mykles***
51. The Iron Duke- Meljean Brook
52. Holiday Sparks- Shannon Stacey
53. Catch Me If You Can- L.B. Gregg
54. Black Gold- Clancy Nacht, Thursday Euclid
55. Bareback- Chris Owen
56. Here Comes the Groom- Karina Bliss
57. Motor City Witch- Cindy Spencer Pape
58. Amethyst Bound- L. Shannon
59. Talk Dirty to Me- Ginny Glass, Inez Kelley
60. Call Me Irresistible- Susan Elizabeth Phillips
61. Bring the Heat- M.L. Rhodes
62. Shadowfever- Karen Marie Moning
63. Touch Me Gently- J.R. Loveless
64. Blue Ruin 1: Some Kind of Stranger- Katrina Strauss
65. Coming Undone- Susan Andersen
66. Tech Support- Jet Mykles
67. Yours, Mine, and Howls- Kinsey W. Holley
68. Handcuffs and Spreader Bars- Kim Dare
69. Mind F*cked- Mia Watts
70. Pretty Man- Ryan Field
71. Sex and the Single Earl- Vanessa Kelly
72. Coming Clean- Inez Kelley
73. Blood, Smoke, and Mirrors- Robyn Bachar
74. Texas Tangle- Leah Braemel
75. Strange Fortune- Josh Lanyon
76. Promises- Marie Sexton
77. Faith & Fidelity- Tere Michaels
78. Overnight- E.C. Sheedy
79. One Con Glory- Sarah Kuhn
80. Drawn Together- Z.A. Maxfield
81. The Charlie Factor- Diana DeRicci
82. Slave Boy- Evangeline Anderson
83. Slave to Sensation- Nalini Singh
84. Snowed In- Rhianne Aile and Madeleine Urban
85. Brier's Bargain- Carol Lynne
86. Seb's Surrender- Carol Lynne
87. I Love Rock N Roll- Carol Lynne
88. Cryoburn- Lois McMaster Bujold
89. No One Lives Twice- Julie Moffett
90. Whistling in the Dark- Tamara Allen
91. Anna and the French Kiss- Stephanie Perkins
92. The Ghost Wore Yellow Socks- Josh Lanyon***
93. Sno Ho- Ethan Day
94. Truly, Madly- Heather Webber
95. Just For You- Jet Mykles
96. Faith- Jet Mykles
97. Genesis- Jet Mykles
98. Revelations- Jet Mykles
99. The Peach Keeper- Sarah Addison Allen
100. William's House- Amber Kell
101. Talker- Amy Lane
102. Talker's Redemption- Amy Lane
103. The Girl For Me- Failte***
104. Quicksilver- Amanda Quick
105. Striking Sparks- Jordan Castillo Price
106. Handcuffs and Leather- Kim Dare
107. Truth in the Dark- Amy Lane
108. Badlands- Seleste deLaney
109. Gambling On Maybe- Fae Sutherland
110. If I Must- Amy Lane***
111. Making His List- Devon Rhodes
112. Scoundrel- Zoe Archer
113. Wrong Number, Right Guy- Mia Watts
114. Hunters- Michelle Marquis
115. Three Wrong Turns in the Desert- Neil Plakcy
116. Shadow Touch- Marjorie M. Liu
117. Love & Scandal- Donna Lea Simpson
118. Rosemary and Rue- Seanan McGuire
119. Lord Scandal- Kalen Hughes
120. The Panther's Lair- Esmerelda Bishop
121. Infernal Devices- Abigail Barnette
122. Trash Course- Penny Drake
123. The Ghost on My Couch- L.A. Gilbert
124. Real Mermaids Don't Wear Toe Rings- Helene Boudreau
125. Hot Pursuit- Suzanne Brockmann
126. Magic Slays- Ilona Andrews
127. The Debutante's Dilemma- Elyse Mady
128. All Play & No Work- Carol Lynne
129. Breaking the Rules- Suzanne Brockmann
130. Edward Unconditionally- Lynn Lorenz
131. Always the Baker Never the Bride- Sandra D. Bricker
132. Fireflies- Ally Blue
133. With the Band- L.A. Witt
134. Everything and the Moon- Julia Quinn
135. Come Unto These Yellow Sands- Josh Lanyon***
136. The Hood of Justice- Mark Alders
137. Tabloid Star- T.A. Chase
138. The Red Pyramid- Rick Riordan
139. Yours to Keep- Shannon Stacey
140. Conquest- S.J. Frost
141. Do Over- Mari Carr
142. What I Did For a Duke- Julie Anne Long
143. Details of the Hunt- Laura Baumbach
144. Cry Sanctuary- Moira Rogers
145. A to Z- Marie Sexton
146. Silver Bound- Ella Drake
147. Should We Drown in Feathered Sleep- Michael Merriam
148. Camwolf- J.L. Merrow
149. The Dark Enquiry- Deanna Raybourn
150. Threadbare- Clare London
151. Pricks and Pragmatism- J.L. Merrow
152. When Tony Met Adam- Suzanne Brockmann
153. River Marked- Patricia Briggs
154. Hot Head- Damon Suede
155. Chasing AllieCat- Rebecca Fjelland Davis
156. My So-Called Love Life- Allie Pleiter
157. Steam & Sorcery- Cindy Spencer Pape
158. The Missing Butterfly- Megan Derr
159. Love Ahead: Expect Delays- Astrid Amara
160. With This Ring- T.A. Chase
161. How to Keep the Love of Your Life- Maureen Willmann
162. Hex Hall- Rachel Hawkins
163. Tin Star- J.L. Langley
164. Heartless- Gail Carriger
165. Call Me Sir, Boy- Kim Dare
166. Tempest Rising- Nicole Peeler
167. Side Jobs- Jim Butcher
168. Off the Beaten Path- Katrina Strauss
169. Ghost Story- Jim Butcher
170. Diving in Deep- K.A. Mitchell
171. Just-You Eyes- Clare London
172. We're Both Straight, Right?- Jamie Fessenden
173. Hard Fall- James Buchanan
174. Making Waves- Tawna Fenske
175. Dead Reckoning- Charlaine Harris
176. The Thief- Megan Whalen Turner
177. Man, oh Man!- Josh Lanyon
178. Muscling Through- J.L. Merrow
179. Lover Avenged- J.R. Ward
180. Collision Course- K.A. Mitchell
181. Buried Sins- Marta Perry
182. Spice n Solace- K.C. Burn
183. Stone Kissed- Keri Stevens
184. Jump First- Charles Edwards
185. A Dog Named Slugger- Leigh Brill
186. Under Fire- Jo Davis
187. Mistletoe at Midnight- L.B. Gregg
188. The Fortune Quilt- Lani Diane Rich
189. Life, Over Easy- K.A. Mitchell
190. Secrets- Jordan Castillo Price
191. Accidentally His- Shawn Lane
192. Sex, Lies, and Online Dating-Rachel Gibson
193. The Last Pure Human- Twisted Hilarity
194. Camp Hell- Jordan Castillo Price
195. In a Dark Wood- Josh Lanyon
196. Yakuza Pride- H.J. Brues
197. Artie the Good Witch- Scarlet Hyacinth
198. Devon Cream- Jet Mykles
199. Half Pass- Astrid Amara
200. Marry Me- Jo Goodman
201. A Nanny For Nate- Lisa Worrall
202. Canyons of Night- Jayne Castle
203. Keeping House- Lee Brazil
204. Devlin and Garrick- Cameron Dane
205. The Book of Bright Ideas- Sandra Kring
206. The Gentleman and the Rogue- Bonnie Dee
207. Maritime Men- Janey Chapel
208. The Shattered Gates- Ginn Hale
209. Ticket to Ride- Shawn Lane
210. Crazy Wind- Xara X. Xanakas
211. When Irish Eyes Are Smiling- Tom Collins
212. Mind Fuck- Manna Francis
213. Wooing Master Jones- Amber Kell
214. Snagged- Jet Mykles
215. Servant of the Crossed Arrows- Ginn Hale
216. Horizons- Mickie B. Ashling
217. Taste- Mickie B. Ashling
218. India Black- Carol K. Carr
219. Finding Forgiveness- Dana Marie Bell
220. The Broken H- J.L. Langley
221. Mummy Dearest- Josh Lanyon***
222. Wolfsbane (MIA Case Files, #1)- K.C. Burn
223. ePistols at Dawn- Z.A. Maxfield
224. Dressed to Thrill- Kimberly Gardner
225. Spin Out- James Buchanan
226. GhosTV- Jordan Castillo Price***
227. He Completes Me- Cardeno C.
228. precious_boy- K.Z. Snow
229. Catching a Buzz- Ally Blue
230. And Call Me in the Morning- Willa Okati
231. Foxe Tail- Haley Walsh
232. Cut & Run- Madeleine Urban and Abigail Roux
233. Spell Bound- Kelley Armstrong
234. Squire- Jet Mykles
235. Like a Sparrow Through the Heart- Aggy Bird
236. A Change of Tune- J.M. Cartwright
237. Wicked Gentlemen- Ginn Hale
238. Barging In- Josephine Myles
239. Bent- Sean Michael
240. Cherry Pie- Samantha Kane
241. Cooking With Ergo- Luisa Prieto
242. Love & Loyalty- Tere Michaels
243. Anything For You- Ethan Day
244. When Irish Eyes Are Sparkling- Tom Collins
245. Some Kind of Magic- R. Cooper
246. Oleander House- Ally Blue
247. Libra: Outlined in Ink- Vivien Dean
248. Brindisi Bedfellows- Jamie Craig
249. Shades of Gray- Brooke McKinley
250. An Uncommon Whore- Belinda McBride
251. Like Coffee and Doughnuts- Ellie Parker
252. Bad Company- K.A. Mitchell
253. The Curtis Reincarnation- Zathyn Priest
254. His Hearth- Mary Calmes
255. Sursein Judgment- Jet Mykles
256. Just Hit Send- Grasshopper
257. Rhapsody For Piano and Ghost- Z.A. Maxfield
258. The Assignment- Evangeline Anderson
259. Litha's Constant Whim- Amy Lane
260. Between Sinners and Saints- Marie Sexton***
261. The Dark Horse- Josh Lanyon
262. Scorpio: The Heart to Help- Jamie Craig
263. Quinn's Hart- Cassandra Gold
264. Long Tall Drink- L.C. Chase
265. Not Knowing Jack- K.A. Mitchell
266. Bear, Otter, and the Kid- T.J. Klune***
267. One Real Thing- Anah Crow
268. Handcuffs and Pretty Things- Kim Dare
269. Gobsmacked- L.B. Gregg
270. Stolen Hearts- Sasha L. Miller
271. Crossing Borders- Z.A. Maxfield
272. The Cards of Life and Death- Colleen Gleason
273. Aquarius: He Said, He Said- Jamie Craig
274. Sonoran Heat- Katrina Strauss
275. Men Under the Mistletoe- Josh Lanyon, Harper Fox, Ava March, K.A. Mitchell
276. Goldilocks and His Three Bears- A.M. Riley
277. Grand Jete- Diana Copland
278. Submission- Chris Owen
279. The Locker Room- Amy Lane
280. Christmas With Danny Fit- Amy Lane***
281. Holiday Outing- Astrid Amara
282. Got Mistletoe?- Andi Anderson
283. Del Fantasma: Duck Fart- Jade Buchanan
284. Counterpoint- Rachel Haimowitz
285. And Playing the Role of Herself- K.E. Lane
286. Hide Out- Katie Allen
287. Primal Red- Nicole Kimberling
288. Baby It's Cold Outside- Nicole Kimberling
289. GI Joe Holiday- Amberly Smith
290. Winter Warmers- Chrissy Munder, Clare London, JL Merrow, Josephine Myles, Lou Harper
291. Mistletoe & Margaritas- Shannon Stacey
292. The Plot Bunny- Scarlet Hyacinth
293. Icecapade- Josh Lanyon
294. Someone Special- T.C. Blue
295. Black Cat Ink- Nicole Kimberling
296. All Snug- B.G. Thomas
297. The Winter Courtship Rituals of Fur-Bearing Critters- Amy Lane
298. Batteries Not Included- J.L. Merrow
299. Hue, Tint, and Shade- Jordan Castillo Price
300. Simple Gifts- L.B. Gregg
301. Carol of the Bellskis- Astrid Amara
302. Twinkle, Twinkle- Josephine Myles
303. The Elf, the Cat, and the Human- Sasha L. Miller
304. The Larton Chronicles- James Anson
Thursday, December 29, 2011
This is a Little Embarrassing
As I mentioned the other day, I'm getting started on my 2012 New Year's resolutions. (Why wait to make positive changes in your life, right?) So, I'm going to kill two birds with one stone here-- post some pictures and talk about the cleaning and organizing I need to do.
Here they come, the embarrassing pictures.
This is the giant pile of crap that completely blocks access to my closet. There are a couple of tubs and boxes on the bottom, with clean clothes, yarn, shipping boxes, and God knows what else in the mix. I haven't measured it or anything, but it's probably 5 feet long, 2 feet deep, and waist high at one end. This is probably my most daunting challenge. A lot of this stuff needs to go into the closet, somehow. But I can't *get to* the closet with the pile in the way. And I don't have the energy or the space to move the pile so I can get to the closet and put it all away. It's a conundrum. But I'll figure something out.
This is the other end of the pile, as well as my dresser, which is thoroughly cluttered and covered in about a quarter inch of dust. On the positive side, you can see my Christmas cards hanging on the door!
This is the set of plastic drawers that I use as my other nightstand. See the pink/white/black thing under the tissue box? That's the sack sock I mentioned a couple posts ago. It's coming along nicely!
As you can see, the whole room is piled, packed, choked with stuff. Part of the problem is me. I have a hard time letting go of stuff that I think I might need. Or I set something aside, and then it disappears from my mind. It just doesn't exist for me anymore. It does, however, continue to collect dust for the next 6 months until I finally throw it away.
But a really big part of the problem is I have no organizational tools or system. That blue tub at the bottom of the first picture is filled with CDs. But I have no place to put them. There are two or three boxes of books taking up space on the floor of my closet, but I have no shelves to put them on. That big ol' dresser? Holds a lot less stuff than you might think. (But to be fair, I really need to go through some of it and either pack it up for winter or just let it go all together.)
I haven't started doing my one song of cleaning a day. I was thinking about doing that today, but I did 11 minutes on the Wii instead (first time in *months*), and between that and MTX day, I am pretty well worn out. But I have started thinking about how I want to arrange things as I get them put away.
Shelves and such are not an option right now. The room desperately needs to be painted (the walls are scuffed up and full of nail holes, and one wall is painted a horrible gray-purple), and I don't want to put anything big and heavy in the room that will have to be moved to get to the walls. And since it's January, it's going to be months before the weather is really appropriate for painting. I'm looking at probably 6 months, minimum, before I can put in shelves. (Also, I want to put in some sort of entertainment system to hold my TV and for storage.)
All this listing of what's wrong, and what I need and can't get right now is starting to feel like a novel. A long, boring, Russian novel. Something by Turgid. (Points to anyone who gets the reference!) I think I'm going to leave this here and come back tomorrow with what I see as my specific requirements for my room, and what I'm going to try to do to meet them in the short run, even if I can't have my dream room right now.
Lip balm of the day: Pick Me Up Peach! (And boy did I need it.)
Here they come, the embarrassing pictures.
This is the giant pile of crap that completely blocks access to my closet. There are a couple of tubs and boxes on the bottom, with clean clothes, yarn, shipping boxes, and God knows what else in the mix. I haven't measured it or anything, but it's probably 5 feet long, 2 feet deep, and waist high at one end. This is probably my most daunting challenge. A lot of this stuff needs to go into the closet, somehow. But I can't *get to* the closet with the pile in the way. And I don't have the energy or the space to move the pile so I can get to the closet and put it all away. It's a conundrum. But I'll figure something out.
This is one end of the pile, and also the little table I use as my nightstand.
This is the other end of the pile, as well as my dresser, which is thoroughly cluttered and covered in about a quarter inch of dust. On the positive side, you can see my Christmas cards hanging on the door!
This is the set of plastic drawers that I use as my other nightstand. See the pink/white/black thing under the tissue box? That's the sack sock I mentioned a couple posts ago. It's coming along nicely!
As you can see, the whole room is piled, packed, choked with stuff. Part of the problem is me. I have a hard time letting go of stuff that I think I might need. Or I set something aside, and then it disappears from my mind. It just doesn't exist for me anymore. It does, however, continue to collect dust for the next 6 months until I finally throw it away.
But a really big part of the problem is I have no organizational tools or system. That blue tub at the bottom of the first picture is filled with CDs. But I have no place to put them. There are two or three boxes of books taking up space on the floor of my closet, but I have no shelves to put them on. That big ol' dresser? Holds a lot less stuff than you might think. (But to be fair, I really need to go through some of it and either pack it up for winter or just let it go all together.)
I haven't started doing my one song of cleaning a day. I was thinking about doing that today, but I did 11 minutes on the Wii instead (first time in *months*), and between that and MTX day, I am pretty well worn out. But I have started thinking about how I want to arrange things as I get them put away.
Shelves and such are not an option right now. The room desperately needs to be painted (the walls are scuffed up and full of nail holes, and one wall is painted a horrible gray-purple), and I don't want to put anything big and heavy in the room that will have to be moved to get to the walls. And since it's January, it's going to be months before the weather is really appropriate for painting. I'm looking at probably 6 months, minimum, before I can put in shelves. (Also, I want to put in some sort of entertainment system to hold my TV and for storage.)
All this listing of what's wrong, and what I need and can't get right now is starting to feel like a novel. A long, boring, Russian novel. Something by Turgid. (Points to anyone who gets the reference!) I think I'm going to leave this here and come back tomorrow with what I see as my specific requirements for my room, and what I'm going to try to do to meet them in the short run, even if I can't have my dream room right now.
Lip balm of the day: Pick Me Up Peach! (And boy did I need it.)
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Wii, Wii, Wii All the Way Home
Karen asked what Wii games I play for exercise. I have lots to say on this subject, so I'm going to go ahead and write a new post. (Thanks for the topic, Karen!) My comments and recommendations come from the perspective of someone who is significantly overweight (I was around 290 the last time I checked), very inactive, and has underlying health problems that cause pain and fatigue. So gentle, low impact exercise is much more important to me than your standard exerciser.
My first exer-game, and the whole reason I bought the Wii in the first place, was the Wii Fit Plus. You've got to have a Wii balance board to play this one. It looks like a scale, but without the readout. The best thing about the Wii Fit is that it's really just a bunch of fun mini games. You can hula hoop. You can box. You can bike or ski or ride a Segway or navigate rapids. Each little game only takes a minute or two to play. So you do a little of this and a little of that until you've done as much as you want to do. You can set a calories burned goal (this one is fun-- you pick a slice of cheese or a piece of cake or one of a half dozen other food items, and then it lets you know when your combined calories burned in your session has worked off that particular item). Wii Fit also has yoga, strength, and balance activities, so you can work on all aspects of physical activity. If you poke around in all the different areas you can get a nicely balanced workout at any level.
The second game that I have and love is Walk it Out. WiO is (surprise!) a walking game. The idea is to step to the beat of the music as you move around Rhythm Island. The landscape starts out pretty blank, but you get a point for every step that you make on the beat, and then you can "zap" things as you go. You can add everything from little stuff like benches and trees and lampposts to big stuff like shops and houses. You can gather clock pieces, and then reset the time within the game to any time of day. (The game has a 24 hour clock that generally lines up with the time in the real world. So if you play at noon every day, you play in sunshine. If you play at 9 o'clock at night, it will be dark out.) You can gather CDs and earn new songs. (You start out with a limited number of songs. The variety of songs in the game is pretty impressive, many with original artists.) You can also collect "rainbow spheres" (big colored balls), and once you've got all 7, a rainbow will appear over the island. (This one resets every day, so you have to keep earning it. Everything else, once you've earned it, it will be there the next time you play.) This one is addictive! There's always just one more thing you want to earn, so it's great for me to get a steady, low impact cardio workout.
I got Active Life Explorer for Christmas last year, and it's fun! It was created as an active game for kids, but it's a fun way for adults to get some movement in, too. Like Wii Fit Plus, it's made up of a lot of different mini games, with an Indiana Jonesy, adventure theme. For me, at the time, it was a little too active. Too much bending and jumping and such. I really want to get into the swing again with Wii Fit and Walk it Out, and then slowly add Active Life Explorer into the rotation. (The great thing about using a game console as exercise equipment is that fun is an important part of the process. If you're not having a good time, why play the game?)
I also got one of the many versions of Dance Dance Revolution for Christmas last year. This one is more energetic than Wii Fit or Walk it Out, but not as much as Active Life Explorer. My problem is that A, I'm not very good at it, and B, I wear out pretty quickly. This is one I'm going to have to work my way up to getting the most out of. Getting better at figuring out how to respond to the directions and working with the controller mat would help, too.
Oh, and I almost forgot, I have one called We Cheer. You're a cheerleader, and you have to learn to accurately do the moves of different dance routines. You'd think this would be really demanding physically, but it depends on how you do it. If you try to do the whole body moves like the cartoon cheerleaders on the screen, there's no way I could do it. But if you just try to keep up with the arm movements (you hold a controller in one or both hands, and that's how the game is scored), it's not too bad. And it's fun! The music is a bit teeny bopperish, but that doesn't bother me.
There are other games I'd like to be able to play, like Just Dance or Zumba Fitness. But I know that those are well beyond anything I could do right now, so I haven't bothered to buy them. Even with regular exercise I'm not sure if my body will *ever* be willing to move the way it would need to to play those games. I'll be happy just to get to the point where I can fully take advantage of the games I already have.
In the down time, when no one is exercising with it, we play Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy, and one called Big Brain Academy to help with cognitive function and reaction time. And when we're being really lazy, we use the Wii to watch streaming movies from Netflix! So the Wii gets a workout, even if we don't. :p
My first exer-game, and the whole reason I bought the Wii in the first place, was the Wii Fit Plus. You've got to have a Wii balance board to play this one. It looks like a scale, but without the readout. The best thing about the Wii Fit is that it's really just a bunch of fun mini games. You can hula hoop. You can box. You can bike or ski or ride a Segway or navigate rapids. Each little game only takes a minute or two to play. So you do a little of this and a little of that until you've done as much as you want to do. You can set a calories burned goal (this one is fun-- you pick a slice of cheese or a piece of cake or one of a half dozen other food items, and then it lets you know when your combined calories burned in your session has worked off that particular item). Wii Fit also has yoga, strength, and balance activities, so you can work on all aspects of physical activity. If you poke around in all the different areas you can get a nicely balanced workout at any level.
The second game that I have and love is Walk it Out. WiO is (surprise!) a walking game. The idea is to step to the beat of the music as you move around Rhythm Island. The landscape starts out pretty blank, but you get a point for every step that you make on the beat, and then you can "zap" things as you go. You can add everything from little stuff like benches and trees and lampposts to big stuff like shops and houses. You can gather clock pieces, and then reset the time within the game to any time of day. (The game has a 24 hour clock that generally lines up with the time in the real world. So if you play at noon every day, you play in sunshine. If you play at 9 o'clock at night, it will be dark out.) You can gather CDs and earn new songs. (You start out with a limited number of songs. The variety of songs in the game is pretty impressive, many with original artists.) You can also collect "rainbow spheres" (big colored balls), and once you've got all 7, a rainbow will appear over the island. (This one resets every day, so you have to keep earning it. Everything else, once you've earned it, it will be there the next time you play.) This one is addictive! There's always just one more thing you want to earn, so it's great for me to get a steady, low impact cardio workout.
I got Active Life Explorer for Christmas last year, and it's fun! It was created as an active game for kids, but it's a fun way for adults to get some movement in, too. Like Wii Fit Plus, it's made up of a lot of different mini games, with an Indiana Jonesy, adventure theme. For me, at the time, it was a little too active. Too much bending and jumping and such. I really want to get into the swing again with Wii Fit and Walk it Out, and then slowly add Active Life Explorer into the rotation. (The great thing about using a game console as exercise equipment is that fun is an important part of the process. If you're not having a good time, why play the game?)
I also got one of the many versions of Dance Dance Revolution for Christmas last year. This one is more energetic than Wii Fit or Walk it Out, but not as much as Active Life Explorer. My problem is that A, I'm not very good at it, and B, I wear out pretty quickly. This is one I'm going to have to work my way up to getting the most out of. Getting better at figuring out how to respond to the directions and working with the controller mat would help, too.
Oh, and I almost forgot, I have one called We Cheer. You're a cheerleader, and you have to learn to accurately do the moves of different dance routines. You'd think this would be really demanding physically, but it depends on how you do it. If you try to do the whole body moves like the cartoon cheerleaders on the screen, there's no way I could do it. But if you just try to keep up with the arm movements (you hold a controller in one or both hands, and that's how the game is scored), it's not too bad. And it's fun! The music is a bit teeny bopperish, but that doesn't bother me.
There are other games I'd like to be able to play, like Just Dance or Zumba Fitness. But I know that those are well beyond anything I could do right now, so I haven't bothered to buy them. Even with regular exercise I'm not sure if my body will *ever* be willing to move the way it would need to to play those games. I'll be happy just to get to the point where I can fully take advantage of the games I already have.
In the down time, when no one is exercising with it, we play Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy, and one called Big Brain Academy to help with cognitive function and reaction time. And when we're being really lazy, we use the Wii to watch streaming movies from Netflix! So the Wii gets a workout, even if we don't. :p
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